Argh, so I feel the need to...settle down. This means settling on a name for myself. I've been calling myself Raile G. Darin for quite a while now, but for a creative name I rather like LiterateHyaena. Which leaves me with this DA account called Keir D. Zarathustra that I don't really want. On the other hand, people (a very rare few) know this place. I don't wanna upset them and myself and complicate things by picking up and moving.

This leads me to another thing.

Now that I'm actually becoming rather involved with DA, I want to actually put the good stuff up. For me, that means my Lucid project. Only problem: as this is the only work I have that I'm really proud of, I'm subsequently very paranoid about getting it stolen...or of putting it up on a name that isn't my traditional, lest people think it's not by me. It's very important to me that I get this project reconised as MINE, as Raile G. Darin's. As someone with two personas running around anyway, my creative and intellectual sides, as I tend to think of them, this kind of identity sticker is hard to settle on. I've become conscious of alot of this because I've been wandering through the account of ~SicPuppy. Another rat enthusiast and very clever individual, she's reminded me of a lot of the things I originally intended to do. Raile G. Darin is a hyaena? Raile G. Darin is a rat? As a non-artist (my talents don't lie there, despite the fact that I'm a heavily visual thinker), so it's not THAT vital, but it still bugs me.

But I guess right now it boils down to...to change accounts or not to change accounts?

To post Lucid or not to post Lucid?

To have an existential crisis, or not to have an existential crisis?


Also, I fear to work on my projects at all. I'm only eighteen, I'm not good enough to start my good ideas. But I don't want to put them off, mortality is a severe enough limitation already.